I'm always feeling blue no matter what I do lately. The laughter I had in college was insufficient to suppress the blue I had at night. Almost everynight.
This post would be about the indescribable feeling. I hope I manage to describe it well.
Ever heard of mid-life crisis? I think I'm in the pre-mid-life crisis stage. Relationship sucks-not that I'm having one. Just saying. I was once in a relationship. It hurts like hell towards the end of it. Now we're like strangers traveling in different directions. Heading to different destination.
Upon reading MayZhee's blog, I realised I'm not alone for feeling the blue lately. The insecurities everynight and crying to sleep does happen. *and I thought I was the problematic one*
When you thought it ended, God decided to show you another part you've missed. But the funny thing is GOD doesn't remind you on how incompatible that you and him was once were. Memories decides to flash out like video replaying, those wonderful
They say life goes on? But nobody tells me how would it be like.
Now I tell you. It will be like having a bad gastric and the pain come and go. Having a blade stab into your heart. Pulling it in and out and the wound couldn't stop bleeding and there's no way of stopping the bleed because you can't.
And you thought shopping or hanging out or doing your fav things help. It doesn't. All you really need is to talk to someone. Whenever you feel alone or blue, you have to talk to someone. Even if it's your dog, I personally think it would help.
I had my reasons for suffering and thus I don't blame anyone for it. It is just unbearable most of the time. If you're out there reading this and feeling the same, it's normal but I wouldn't say it's okay.
Signing off with a bit of what's left of me, the Purple Dino spirit. RAWRR~
Hugs and kisses, till then.
